But What if I Don’t Like Where I Am?

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“One day it started raining, and it didn’t quit for four months. We been through every kind of rain there is. Little bitty stingin’ rain… and big ol’ fat rain. Rain that flew in sideways. And sometimes rain even seemed to come straight up from underneath. Shoot, it even rained at night…” -Forrest Gump

Welcome to Week Two of “I Say Yes”…my year long free art journaling workshop dedicated to helping YOU find your Voice and tell your Story so you can Heal. I am blown away by all the activity in our Facebook group! Your journal pages are stunning and your willingness to share is something I never imagined. I am grateful for each of YOU. If you haven’t heard about our growing community please click here to join our private FB group. We would LOVE to have you!!!

I am ready to tell more of MY Story this week.

This part of the Story is called “Not again”

A year ago last fall my husband and I sold some property of ours for a pretty big chunk of change. We were so excited by this since we owed nothing on the properties and dreamed of investing our money in the markets and not working for quite awhile. At first this lifestyle was fun and easy. We couldn’t believe the money we were making. And if you remember my story from last week you know we had spent years struggling financially, unable to do things…we took full advantage of having extra and spent more than we should have.

BIG MISTAKE

When you have your money in the markets…it’s like you are on a roller coaster…lots of highs and lots of lows. And the lows can BREAK YOU.

To be clear…I was NOT a fan of playing the market…it felt too much like gambling to me. But I was reassured that everything would be fine and anytime I felt nervous about it my husband would say “Look honey, today we made $xxxxx!” As the year went on I got used to making money and losing money. I was sick to my stomach most days. What we were doing just didn’t FEEL right.

My family and I own and operate a shaved ice business in our town…Kool Kats.

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We LOVE what we do!! We LOVE serving our community the BEST shaved ice and ice cream in town! We take our business to fairs, college events, schools and festivals. When we are not traveling we are parked and selling at a permanent location.

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This is me from last year…the day of the Solar Eclipse!! Our drink of the day was Moon Madness!!

Last summer I spent most hours of every single day inside that trailer. You see in April the stocks we had our money in took a downturn. We started losing and losing and losing. Until…

WE LOST.

Most everything.

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I was bitter and mad and I cried and cried and yelled and screamed at my husband.

But none of that changed our situation.

It was what is was.

I had to make a choice…I could stay mad and bitter and upset and sick and feel sorry for myself…..

OR

I could CHOOSE to take responsibility for OUR mistakes (we are a team after all!!) and get to WORK.

I chose the latter.

And during that time I had SO MUCH on my plate I decided to give up social media and my art for the summer. My Heart wasn’t in it anyway. Because even though I had made the choice to MOVE FORWARD I felt like the wind had been knocked out of me. All the old scary, yucky feelings from years ago came back and began suffocating me. Working did help. It put me in control of our situation but the art I had loved so much was missing.

My husband and I worked LONG hours…most of the day and late at night. We were so BLESSED with TONS of business and events and we were soooo GRATEFUL! We got home around 11 to midnight most nights then stayed up watching a few programs to unwind. Most nights we didn’t get to bed until 2 in the morning. We would still get up early though…we had other responsibilities. I would sit on the couch with my coffee and watch the news for an hour, knowing I had to get ready for work soon and do it all over again. But midway through the summer I realized the news was doing NOTHING to boost my mood so I turned to YouTube and that’s where I found fellow art journaler Diane Fago. I would sit and devour her videos. I LOVED THEM! Her style was really speaking to me. I hadn’t felt this inspired in MONTHS.

One morning instead of sitting on the couch I made an effort to go to my studio…a place I had been avoiding…it was almost too painful to be there. I MISSED my Brave Heart Sisterhood group so much and yet I just couldn’t bring myself to be there. But there I was pulling out supplies, journal in hand, excited to try what I had learned from Diane. I ended up creating THREE pages that morning!! I couldn’t get enough!! It was so FREEING!!!!

It was THAT day I made the decision the ACCEPT where I was. I ACCEPTED the predicament we were in. I ACCEPTED the fact thatI worked 12/14 hours a day. I ACCEPTED that we were once again struggling financially.

The day I  ACCEPTED was the day I found FREEDOM. My situation had not changed but my ATTITUDE had. A cloud had been lifted and I was finding JOY in my life again.

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I’ve heard it in the chillest land
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

  -Emily Dickinson

You could WIN These!

My sweet friend from Love Squared Designs has graciously made this BEAUTIFUL leather cuff and turquoise bead necklace for one lucky person in class!! Also included in the prize package are TWO prints from mixed-media artist Stephanie Ackerman and a few treasures from ME!! Find out in our group how YOU can WIN!!

Homework

March Theme: Stop Living on Auto-Pilot

Week Two: Acceptance

Art Therapy Page: Create a page ALL about HAPPY! Use bright colors, your favorite images and words

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My HAPPY Page

Happy Images Printout

Happiness Quotes Printout

YouTube Video

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About bravegirlartI am a creative Soul. I love God, my family and try to always see the best in my life. I am passionate about encouraging, uplifting and inspiring others to create art. I teach Faith Journaling Workshops and am the leader of an Art as Prayer group at my church. I love sharing my Story and encourage others to share theirs.

2 thoughts on “But What if I Don’t Like Where I Am?

  1. I am so happy to be in your group. The other night I felt that I was a part of your group. You
    Acknowledge me . Even though there are hundreds of group members I was seen. Thanx 💖

    • Hi LaTonjia!! I DO SEE YOU!! Thank you so much for being here. I appreciate you and your story and your willingness to share with us!!!

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